I have to start this post off with something that may surprise some of you.
When the "Case For Ayla" came into my hands, I had words for Trista that weren't something everyone would expect. I felt for her. My heart ached for her. My tears fell, for her, for Ayla, for Justin, for everyone involved. When I was presented with that information, and that is what I will call it, not evidence, because we have only gotten that word from Trista, my heart broke. As the months went on and I was trickled more and more information from that January meeting, my feelings grew deeper in sadness. I had questions. I had anger. I had frustration. I felt lost, and I shared that with Tori many, many times, in depth because the information was known by both of us. But I also shared, what little I could of those feelings, with my TLLOM ladies, the ones who I have worked so closely with for almost 2 years to strive to bring awareness and bring people from every corner of North America to search for Ayla Bell Reynolds. We all shared the same sentiments. If Trista was so sure Ayla was deceased, and she had evidence, why was there no movement at all? Why were statements like "Justin is free to go just like you and I" made. Why did it seem like there was no work being done publicly, not only by Justin himself, but by Trista? And families? It seemed like everything suddenly stopped after Trista's meeting with MSP. But with her stopping, why did Justin's family say they felt hope and renewed feelings for the law enforcement involved. They stated that both families were shown the same hand. Was the information presented differently to both families? Yet it was the same information?
I am frustrated watching the news specials since Wednesday's altercation. I'm heartbroken for Trista that she felt she needed to get the media there to confront Justin. I almost wonder if she had done it differently if maybe, just maybe, he would have spoken with her, even if just a little. I know I would hate that ambush. I'm sure you would too. I don't condone Phoebe calling Ron an asshole. I don't condone Ron screaming "your son killed my granddaughter". I don't think the ladies should have squared off in a screaming match. But I do feel that emotions are running so high, almost anything was bound to happen. I don't think Justin should have run like he did, but I understand that after being followed and hounded and screamed at, he just wanted to get away from it all. I am frustrated with the "facts" that they are putting forward. Just the other night on HLN After Dark they said Portland is 160 miles away from Waterville. Clearly no one checked a map, because 76.02 miles is almost 100 miles shorter than 160. And 76.02 miles is how far apart those two cities are. They also stated that Trista has been cleared by LE. Well, I'm sorry, but I have NOT heard them state that as a fact. I'm not saying Trista is guilty of anything at all, but let's be honest - they have said over and over "No One has been cleared as a suspect". That leaves everyone open. Including you and me! So we cannot take the words being spread through the media as fact, but I thought that was kind of common sense. Media looks for what sells. What makes the big money. What gets more viewers or more followers. They keep saying "No one would want to be in Trista's shoes right now".... well guess what, I wouldn't want to be in anyone of their shoes. Not Trista, not Ron, not Jessica, not Justin, not Elisha, not Phoebe. NONE. Hell, there are days I wonder why I got so far into this and I have to be in my own shoes. There are two families here, who, like it or not, are being torn apart every single day. What do they each know? We don't know. We aren't supposed to know, the people who are supposed to know are the ones investigating. We are just simply on the sidelines, cheering for Ayla, and hoping for her return, and at this point a return of her in any way would be a victory and a step towards Justice for Ayla.
I don't know if Justin knows anything else. I don't know if Trista does. I don't know if Ron does. The only thing I'm certain of is that I don't. But I wish I did. And I'm sure you wish you did too. There are so many people involved here, and they all have their own personal life issues, that it's hard to say just where the blame should go. I think that the biggest thing I would like to see out of all this is that people look at both sides of the coin. Neither family is perfect. They each have their own family dynamic issues - both are broken homes. Both have had some sort of substance issues. I wish that those who pick apart the DiPietro's would pick apart the Reynolds. I wish that those who pick apart the Reynolds would pick apart the DiPietro's. This one sided, "pick a side" bullshit is getting to me. Both have had their lives turned upside down through this. Both want Ayla home. That's the most important thing to look at here - BOTH WANT AYLA HOME. And isn't that what we are here for? Finding a way to bring Ayla home?
.... stay tuned. Many of you have asked, and I know I have avoided, what I really think happened to Ayla, and how I would explain some of this evidence. That is up next.