Sunday, March 31, 2013
Easter-A Time for New Beginnings
Today is Easter. It is the second Easter that the whereabouts of Ayla Reynolds are unknown. We don't know if she is out there celebrating Easter with someone other than her family or if her days of celebrating Easter are over.
Many of us associate Easter with the Easter Bunny, Egg Hunts, Ham Dinners with family, and Easter Baskets filled with giant chocolate bunnies, marshmallow Peeps, and that annoying fake grass that gets everywhere. I was baptized Catholic but do not attend church at all and although Easter is really a religious holiday it is something that too frequently gets overlooked by me and I am sure many others.
This year I am trying to look at Easter as what it really should be about, a time for new beginnings. A "Do Over" of sorts. It couldn't come at a better time of year, Spring is technically here even though there is still some snow on the ground outside and nights are still quite chilly but soon enough we will smell and see the grass, hear the birds again and see them building their nests. Flowers will begin to sprout. Cabin fever will be over and spirits renewed. I can't think of a better time to change what needs changing and to start over.
Personally, I have recognized that much in my life needs changing. The last three years were hard on me. I suffered the loss of my dad, my son's cancer has been relentless as well as his behavioral issues, financial issues, the loss of my job, moving, etc. Most people have appropriate coping skills and tackle issues one at a time, I lack proper coping skills. I instead shut down, shut out the world and immerse myself in something. In this case it was Ayla and what happened to her. It could have been worse, something self destructive so I am grateful that I was able to start blogging about Ayla and meeting some of the wonderful people I have met along the way.
So, I have taken this past month and recognized changes I need to make and what direction I want to take in my life and what I need to let go of in order to move on with my life. I am not abandoning Ayla's case although I know lately I haven't done many posts about her but that is because I started a new job and I am trying to balance work, family, and the blog. While doing some soul searching though it got me thinking of new beginnings and especially a fresh start for whomever knows what happened to Ayla.
It is likely more than one person is living with this giant secret about what happened to Ayla. This secret has to be eating at them, destroying them more and more the longer they hold on to it. I would like to think that one or even more of these people that are living with this secret are not a bad person or bad people but just got caught up in something and before they knew it were in too deep to turn back. Unfortunately they will not get the chance for a do over or be able to make a new start and better themselves or their lives or maybe even the lives of their children, if they have any, until they let this secret out. The knowledge of what happened to Ayla and the consequences of knowing what happened and not telling isn't going to go away no matter how long they stay silent. Eventually one of two things will happen, the truth will become known based on diligent police work and if for some awful reason the police never do break the case I can guarantee the guilt of living with a secret this big will eventually ruin the life of the person holding it and those loved ones that that person is surrounded by will be affected as well.
So, if you are reading this today and you know something or think you may know something, ANYTHING, that could help police find out the truth about what happened to Ayla or where Ayla is, I just ask that you think about how sometimes a fresh start is all someone needs to make things better in their lives and about second chances and it isn't too late to talk and to help right a wrong. Yes, there may be consequences to deal with for not coming out with the truth sooner but they won't be nearly as bad as if you never tell and the truth gets found out anyway and the police know you knew but didn't speak out when you had the chance. Use this day of new beginnings to save yourself and put an end to the misery that the many people who love Ayla are feeling today, who are missing her presence, who just want answers.
To everyone else, I wish you all a Happy Easter. I hope you are able to spend the day with your loved ones, hug your children a little tighter and be thankful for all that you have. I know I will be and it is not lost on me how truly lucky I am that I know where my children are and know that they are safe.